NEW YORK IN THE MORNING

Well I am off again to the CITY today. I am supposed to do some shooting with a world famous stylist and a top notch photographer. I am not too sure whether it is for a national ad campaign or for the stylist's portfolio or what but I am going. Sometimes in this industry you take the opportunity first then ask questions later. The reputation of the Stylist and Photographer tells me that it won't be anything pornographic so all I need to do is show up. 

I feel like I am on the show again though, a lot of hurry up and wait. That is what the majority of this industry is. You get to where you're going early, only so you can wait the rest of the day for either make up and hair or to be seen by the client after hundreds of other models have taken their turn. In this case we were to shoot on Wednesday but you know sometimes things don't work out as they should so the date is in limbo but come hell or high water I will be in NYC waiting for that phone call telling me to be at whatever location in ten.  It's amazing how much fun you can have while spending your last dime on a bus ticket from Philly to NYC. These are the stories you remember when you finally make it. 

Anyway I just thought I would share that tidbit with you all as I hadn't written in a while. Hope all is well with everyone else and I hope to show you the pictures from that shoot really soon.

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Take the chance

I didn't realize that when I got into that line in NYC back in July, that May would come and my life would have changed for ever. It's weird how we can sit in our beds, or classrooms, or offices, or where ever and daydream about doing something bigger.  We wish for that chance to change our lives, but we refuse to because we're too afraid to break what's comfortable or exert that extra effort to just try. We look at others who are fulfilling their goals and we say that "they are lucky," we say that "they have it all," "they were in  the right place at the right time" but I believe that the reality is that they just got FED UP. 

They got fed up with mediocrity, monotony and any other "m" words to describe a state of constant averageness directing their lives. I remember sitting in class listening to a lecture and thinking "this is not what I want." A realization like that can really set the ball rolling for change in your life. This is the acceptance of "No I want more," and if you want it that's when you start thinking of how to get it. 

Now I will admit the road from the realization to the actualization may be bumpy. I remember when I had decided to try modeling I went to all the agencies in NYC and heard varying levels of "NO," most with no reason at all. However, the pure excitement of actually going to each open call and doing something that I was so enthused to do, knowing it was something that I wanted, provided the right medicine to get over the rejection. Simply it was just fun. I was actively pursuing something. 

Finding the courage to say "this is what I want and I have the ability to go for it" is to me the best advice I can give to anyone. I constantly get asked "do you think I have potential?" or "Should I try out for next season?" and the truth is why ask? Give yourself the opportunity by showing up for whatever it is you want, just be prepared that the answer could be either YES or NO. 

By showing up to that casting in July, I met 15 incredible individuals, countless other PA's, Cameramen, Sound guys (I know technical term right), lighting specialists, casting directors, make up artist, trainers,  stylists, designers, supermodels, photographers, scouts, directors, caterers, drivers, producers and cast ranglers. I was allowed to take part in once in a life time activities while learning the other side of an industry that not too many are privileged  to. I was given the most AMAZING experience of my life and to think I could have missed the chance if I had listened to the twinge of doubt, that made me turn away twice from the subway, that morning on the 26th. 

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